It’s been fifty days
since I last saw my reflection in your eyes…
since I last got lost in the lines on your face…
since I last felt magic when your shadow touched mine…
since that moment when you decided to give up on our love…
because it drained us…
consumed us…
since the day when you chose peace of mind
over love infinite…
in the process you robbed me
of my peace and sleep…
stamped on my mind are your last words…
my love you said made you numb…
you couldn’t handle the weight you said…
so you chose distance instead…
I have often wondered if that
on your part was an act too selfish…
to just rip my world and leave…

but today when I saw you in the alley…
it hit me…
so this is how it feels…
to go numb
to just sink in the ground…
after all these days
today I truly can say…
that it does hit you in the face
each time our hands barely grazed…
if this is what one would want to avoid
I understand perfect it wrenches the heart this void…
but I’ll still take numb
dark
pain
any day
if that shall be the result
of looking into your eyes again…
…only today have I learnt what you meant…
my heart feels like a ship sunken

©Seema Tabassum 2016
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This was written for the Daily Post Prompt FIFTY